Where the %@#*&? are you?

This is the question I have been asked recently.... In a loving and caring way, of course.

Where do I begin? My summer started off great. My daughter got out of school, and we planned a trip to visit my mom, in Ohio. We live in Illinois. So, since my mom had some time off this summer she asked my daughter to stay and spend some time with her over the summer. OK great. So, we went to visit and my daughter stayed when I came home. We had a great visit, I came home and went back to work.

So, I figured once I got back i would get back to my videos.... I was wrong...

First, i had some extra stuff at work come up that took up my time, then my brother's girlfriend and there 4 year old and brand new baby boy, got into a car accident.... So, we were on pins and needles for a few days waiting to hear that everyone was OK, which they were...Thank God!

So, just as I start to get back on track I find out that my dad is in the hospital, he lives in Wisconsin.

It turns out that he has chirrhosis of the liver! He has been an alcoholic for many years but you still are never prepared for a thing like this.

Well, he was released from the hospital after just a few days. So, we all thought that as long as he didnt drink he would be ok at least for a few more years.

So, two days ago, I find out that he is back in the hospital. This time his feet and stomach are really swollen, he has some jaundice and he is having hallucinations. At first, the doctor thinks it is due to the alcohol withdrawal. Now, they think it is due to his liver failing.

So, I have really been going through a thing here. I am 6 hours away, and cant do anything to make him better even if I was there. I am planning a trip to go see him so unfortunately I probably wont be doing too much with my blog or youtube channel until I get back. I hope everyone understands and sticks around. I need your support more than ever right now.

My dad is only 54 years old, he is still a fairly young man and Im not ready to lose him yet. He isnt even coherent when I talk to him, I dont know if he knows who I am.

I could use any words of wisdom right now....

thanks